I’ve been recently questioning the feasibility of being a working mom, whether being away from my daughter for around 9 to 10 hours a day still qualifies me to be her mom, whether seeing her for an hour or two a day still qualifies me to know her well, and whether giving her one out of five meals a day is considered sufficient care.
Am I doing the right thing? Am I going to regret this? She won’t be two forever, just like she wasn’t one forever. And before I know it she’s a grown up who doesn’t need me as much. But I’m a full-time translator, so does that make me a part-time mom?
I recently got to the conclusion that it absolutely does not.
I may not be by her side whenever she needs me during the day, but I’m with her whenever I’m not working, and the moments I spend with her are beyond sacred to me. I may not get the chance to feed her much or play with her whenever she feels like it, but I make the little playtime I give her worth her while. I may not spend enough time with her, but I still think about her every second of every hour, and I find comfort in the idea that no matter how bad a day I may have, she will always be there to cheer me up and remind me that my happiness solely relies on her — and her smile. I may be physically at work, but in my head I’m always with her.
I pray every night for the people who take care of her while I’m at work. I pray for each and every person who treats her nicely even while I’m not looking and while I’m busy working out sentences, finding English equivalents to names of Syrian brigades and English idioms to Egyptian proverbs. I send all kinds of positive vibes to whoever it is that cheers her up and makes her feel safe when her patience starts running low as she waits for me to pick her up. I pray for that teacher who eagerly waits for me to tell me about her achievements. And I dedicate this post to a lady who once witnessed my frustration as I got late to nursery and asked me never to give up, to keep walking and to keep setting a good example for Kayla.
So if all I’m doing is set a good example for Kayla, then it’s definitely worth the effort of juggling two full-time positions.