It was Mother’s Day yesterday, and I did not particularly like it…
While my friends shared words of wisdom in appreciation of their mothers and thanked them for their strength, achievements, and sacrifices throughout the years, I couldn’t help but think of your fragility. They said their mothers loved them unconditionally, and here I am searching for a sign of your unconditional love. They thanked their mothers for watching over them, and I hated how we are the ones always watching over you…
And then I read beautiful words about girls turning into moms and realizing how big of a sacrifice motherhood is, and I wondered when you would come to understand the sacrifices we made and are still making – willingly or unwillingly.
They said they were thankful that their moms were there for them whenever they needed them, whenever they needed support and whenever they got sick, but I sadly realized that you’re the constantly ill person in the equation. You’re the one who’s always ailing and suffering and fighting an uphill battle – a losing one I might add. You’re the one who’s always hoping against hope, trying your best and giving it all you’ve got despite it all. You’re the one who’s always burying a thousand and one problems while waiting for one to be solved to unveil another one, one at a time.
This reminded me of how I always wanted to live in a country that’s in control of everything and everyone, not in a country that falls prey to other countries’ whims and desires a million times a day. It reminded me how I hated you and how I wanted a country where there is no room for huffing and puffing. But it wasn’t long before teenage defiance was over and my coping mechanism kicked in. So I developed a sense of belonging to you. And here I am today fully aware that by hell or high water you’re the only one for me.
Beirut, you showed resilience when we all marched to a different drummer. You were persistent when all we thought about was letting go. You remained genuine amid the struggle playing out in the entire region. You remained loving when your own kids were thinking of leaving you. In short, you proved that you have so much to give and so much to offer.
This is to ask you to roll your patience across the country so that when our kids start yearning to leave, we would be able to stop them.
Happy belated Mother’s Day!